Example With A Point

Something to think about

I want to make a point. To do so I will have to use an example of what is happening so that you will understand my point by applying the example. So take a deep breath, close your eyes for five seconds and then imagine the following.

It’s eleven thirty at night, you get tired and go to bed. You lie awake for half an hour and then fall asleep. You go right into REM sleep and you dream that your in your own house, in your own living room, sitting in your own EZ chair.

Your sitting in your EZ chair, you know your dreaming and your perfectly content to sit in your EZ chair doing nothing full well knowing your dreaming, and that your asleep in your bed. So you sit in your chair and you know that you will wake up if you get out of the chair. The only thing you would have to do to wake up from the dream is get out of the damn chair. But it’s so comfortable.

Time Passes

A long time passes. Your still dreaming in  your EZ chair and asleep in your bed. You don’t want to wake up, so you don’t bother to get up out of the chair. Time passes. Then a long time passes. Then many years have passed. The person you were in the bed sleeping has died. now your sitting in your EZ chair and would go strait to heaven if you got up out of your EZ chair. But it’s so comfortable. You don’t want to get up. A long time passes. Your sitting in your EZ chair and no longer know where your body is.

When you get up this morning; do yourself a favor. Ask yourself if I was about to do what I’m going to do today and it was my last day alive is this really what I want to be doing? Ask yourself and give yourself an honest answer. If the answer is no, then do something about it to change what your doing so you get better results. If you fail to do so, then your going to find yourself in that EZ chair scared shitless because your too chicken shit to get up and wake up.

Did you know me?

Did you even get to know me?

You know people judge a lot. I have to wonder if any of them actually got to know me. If they understood the problems and the trouble in my way? Did you know me, or did you make the mistake of thinking you knew me?

I wish a few more people would take the time to get to know me, and quit judging me for thinking even a little different then you do. Instead of judging me and saying I need to be a better person, why don’t you take the time to really get to know me. To understand the finer texture of my spirit and soul. What you think you know, isn’t all that’s there. Why don’t you ask some questions, or take the time to read my writing.

Try, Try, Try, Did you know me?

You could learn a lot about me from listening to my music, but if you read my writing you would know my mind. That doesn’t mean you would know my soul, but it might be one step closer to understanding me. Isn’t that what friends do for each other? Don’t you try to get to know someone, to know and understand them? There is a difference between “Talking to” someone and “Talking with” someone. Do you know the difference?

I really wish that someone would take the time to get to know me. I want someone to take the time in a judgement free frame of mind to take the time to understand what I’m about, what I believe, and what I feel.

If you take the time to try and get to know me, then if your still not satisfied then we definitely won’t be friends. But if you never try you will never know, and you could be loosing a good friend by being selfish.

Please someone take the time to read my writing, to think about what I’m saying. Take the time to get to know me, my sense of humor, and my fears and whims. If your not willing to do that, then I really don’t want you, capiche?

If you make the decision to be friends with me based upon a coin flip, your a weak shmuck. Take the time, get to know me, did you?

Did you know…

Did you know…

I have sat at the computer keyboard like a junkie everyday bleeding my heart out onto the computer screen in digital ink. Sometimes it’s more than a man can take. Sometimes it’s more than a god can take.

Did you know

I’m sure there is a plant in the galaxy M-42 that is just as bright as I am, if not smarter. It’s such a big universe and so little time. I’m not sure if I’m every coming back to sol, but If I do; I will be sure to bring a group of misfits that aren’t to be reckoned with.

I have written every thing that could possibly make a difference in my life in one place or another from everything that I could remember or think of or that I could search my sub-consious heart and mind for.

When you understand these are not thoughts from my mind, these are direct messages from my sub-consious self that understand more than most mortal humans will ever imagine. Please be patient with your fellow kin while they try to sort this out.

I understand that many of you have failed to understand what I was talking about. what I meant, or what I was trying to say. I’m sorry, I said it in english and it vexes me now that none of you knew a word I had said. It’s all good, when you learn to read what I wrote, then it will all make sense.

Flip A coin, is that a witch or bitch?

How learning to use a computer can teach you how to think clearly – Drive Fast

Drive Fast

The truth of the matter is that learning how to use a computer can increase your ability to think clearly. If you really want to drive fast, learn to think clearly. It can also help you become more creative and help you learn new skills. Throughout your life using a computer that will benefit not only yourself but others too.

I’m not talking about the skills required to use facebook or twitter. I’m talking about real skills in things that require actually reading the screen and doing the right thing.

Once you learn to think, you will find that whole new worlds open up to you. You are no longer held by old ways of thinking. The old way of thinking that keeps you from opening up to new possibilities and potential.

There is nothing worse than being held back by old ways of thinking or doing things that does not contribute to todays society. Too many people have forgotten that being of use is important.

You know to drive fast, you have to have a model that works fast. I will agree that there is nothing better than the slow happy thinker. However if you always stay in the same lane and the same track, are you not just going around in circles all the time? Think about it!

If you keep thinking in circles, then what progress have  you made in two years? What about in twenty years? Wouldn’t it be nice to quit going around in circles in your thoughts and start going in strait lines that actually take you somewhere? Think about that.

Stop going in circles

Drive fast, learn to go in strait lines and quit going in circles. Thank you for listening.

Life explained!

Life explained!

The creative process hasn’t finished yet. Think of it as using a three dimensional printer to make a three dimensional printer. Except the process is doing something else. That’s life explained in the simple terms of it.

If you were going to be building something large and complex, you would naturally want to work on small pieces and do a perfect job while completing each piece with perfection. Then you would move to the next piece that needs done and after the whole process has completed, we would have a finished product that is perfect and fit for a king.

So when I look at life and the process that we are living in, and thinking about what we’re doing with life, the creation process isn’t finished yet. We are just waiting on each piece of the puzzle to be completed in a timely and perfect manner.

It’s not easy, life is tough. What we’re making is going to be done right, the first time, and even if we have to make history repeat itself time and time again to complete the perfect finish on each and every piece we are building.  Then when it’s done it will be done right and be perfect.

Don’t Doubt; Have some faith.

Damn it, I’m smart enough to build it, and patient enough to wait for the process to complete. But damn it I Didn’t do by myself. I had help. when it’s done everyone gets their fair credit and no one will be left behind or forgotten. Everyone will be there and life will be better for everyone when it’s done.

It may be possible if you think about it, to have a being that is old enough and wise enough to have lived a million lives as a human and having all that experience and knowledge and having done it right.  You would wake up with a wealth of knowledge and wisdom and enough experience that when real life started you would be not only careful and happy enough to do right. You would be careful enough not to hurt anyone.

If you think about what the lives of a million people on earth would be like and the sadness and gladness from each of those lives and times. You would understand that the combined experiences would make you not only stronger, but a better being in the long run.

The beginning is so important that it can not be left to chance, you have to understand that god doesn’t play dice with the universe. What is being done is being done by The True God for our benefit in the future and the life that we will all have. When the creation process completes everyone will be well aware of the process having finished. It’s not over until it’s done!

Be Aware, Have some Care!

Please be aware, please have a care. Be kind, the cruel life that these people have been putting other people through has been enough shit to fill a dump in hell. Please start being better to other people and start living your life like you mean it for the good of everyone. Add some joy to people’s lives, make someone’s day better. Not talking just a smile, but something that warms their heart and mind and soul.

Please be aware, when it’s finished, it’s really done. It’s not over until it’s done right and everything is complete. So be aware, have a care. Be kind and wait for the process to finish. Everyone will be happy in the end. But the three dimensional printer, you know the wind and rain all do something in the building process. You know God doesn’t make junk, so it’s going to be done right. Just keep being kind and come hell or high water, life will continue until the process is done.

If you think I’m crazy, your right. If you think I’m insane, please check yourself into the nearest hospital. I’m just fine. If your really believe that I’m wrong and don’t know what I’m talking about and that I’m full of shit.  Then you have to read my journals of four point five million words and endure the shit i have had to think, feel, and believe. After that if you still don’t believe me, then fuck you. I wanna see the look on your face when it’s done.

If that doesn’t satisfy your understanding of life, and feel that’s not life explained very well, please consult god for advice.

Does anyone bother to think about life?

Losing Your Mind

Broken Dreams

Broken dreams don’t make a person lose their mind. If you think your losing your mind, perhaps stress. Perhaps pain, maybe too many years of isolation. Broken dreams don’t hurt. Why should they. Just because you put everything in your heart and soul into something that doesn’t work out, why should that be difficult. Maybe it’s just my ego that wants freedom from the cycle of life?

It seems no one cares, and the truth of the matter is no one does. People only care about themselves. If I could offer solutions for how they could solve their problems, then they would all be interested. Perhaps I have such a solution, but to share such information would require that someone listen.

The problem is until I have an answer for people’s most difficult problems they simply aren’t going to be wise enough to listen now. Which is sad, because if they would listen now, the future could be prevented in advance and they would be able to fix what’s wrong before it becomes a problem.

You think? Or do you think your losing your mind?

Which came first the solution to the problem or the problem itself? Maybe the problem is by design and they only want us to believe that the problem exists so they can fix it later and take all the credit? Hmm… You could figure it out.

Think Your Losing your mind? Wait until AI makes all the programming.

Maybe if your not thinking, then you really are losing your mind. Have you stopped to consider the facts. Thinking is equal to having a mind that is in good shape, and not thinking is equal to having lost your mind. Think about it.

What is truth? If I knew, maybe then I could help you solve your problems and make life better for everyone? Maybe I would give it away for free? The world is dangerously close to having lost it’s mind.


Bucket List

Life Goals – Bucket List

  1. To inspire ten people to do more with their life than I did with mine.
  2. To inspire ten people to write three books of at least 45,000 words each.
  3. Inspire people to master a skill, then add to what they know!
  4. To die without any money but wealthy in terms of love and respect from friends and family.
  5. To change the course of human history from destruction to a path of kindness and love. To promote peace as a sustainable means to the end.
  6. Teach others how to use a computer for creative and productive ways that makes their lives better.
  7. To teach a group of people how to think, not what to think.
  8. Make some music
  9. Take ten thousand more photographs
  10. Make life better for everyone.
  11. Never watch commercial TV again.
  12. Tell people what I really think.
  13. Burn the midnight ether.

Things accomplished:

  1. have a family
  2. have friends
  3. have a girlfriend
  4. have a job
  5. travel to Florida
  6. write a million words (4,880,040 Done)
  7. Have an art show for my photographs
  8. Take a thousand photographs
  9. Listen to 10,000 hours of music in two years
  10. Live 1,000,000,000 seconds
  11. Wrote three books
  12. Smoked 120,200 cigarettes
  13. Avoid Alcohol and drugs seven years sober without 1 drink.
  14. Learn to think
  15. Practice peace
  16. Took my own self portrait
  17. Took someone else’s portrait
  18. Learned Unix
  19. Learned Apple Computers and software
  20. Know life is worth living despite hardships
  21. Lived through hell on earth
  22. Had a dog
  23. Thought more than I spoke and listened more than I replied.

Must READ!!

Something everyone needs to understand NOW!

  1. If you never try, you will never be successful. ever!! not ever!!
  2. If you make a habit of failing, you will always fail.
  3. If you make a habit of being successful you have potential to be successful and can be more.
  • Success is not the teacher, failure is.
  • However if you never try, you will never ever be successful.

Please get out of your comfort zone’s and start doing something with your life, with yourself, and for others that helps everyone. If you give up now, then why did you come so far to quit here? Why, because it’s tough, or it’s hard, or you think you can’t do it? Start thinking you can and you might! But if you believe you never will you really and truly won’t!!

Do you understand?

If your going to practice failure for the sake of being a failure, your below average and fodder for zombies. Either help others to reach their potential or do no harm to those who are trying to rise above.

Otherwise, why else are you alive? Are you food for worms? Please Wake up!

Before it’s too late! We have the potential to make life better for everyone. Please realize you are more than you believe and could be great too. Please realize that you have potential and possibilities inside you. Please understand that you don’t have to be lazy and superficial to survive in this world.


My Photography

I want to talk about my photography for a minute here on my blog. It’s something that has gotten me through some really tough times. Although I’m not well known or famous from my work, it has brought a small amount of light back into a dim world.

I hope that you will understand that it’s something that I do for myself to see what can be done. I would like to be doing a lot more of what I feel is important work going forward into the future. However with current constraints upon my mind and body; there is only limited hope.

If you find that your unhappy and feeling a bit blue, try taking the camera out and take some photos. It’s really true, you don’t get good from anything but practice and experience. I have worked for over twenty-five years to apply myself in everything I could photograph.


Don’t limit yourself to just one kind of photography. Start really searching out to see what something will look like when you take a photograph. You will get a feel for what angle and what place to position yourself just from knowing and understanding what something when photographed will look like.

Don’t give up. There are a lot of failures going down any road. You have to be willing to keep the light alive, and dream, while seeing each failure as one more block in the progress of becoming good.

Be willing to make the long term commitment to doing something for yourself that your future self will thank you for. Keep your health in good shape, take care of yourself, and be cool with other people.

Don’t forget it’s just a skill, there are more skills you can add to your list. Once you have mastered this one, you have to be willing to take the next one too. Believe in the impossible and dream with your eyes open.

The Long Road

The Long Road

This is my collection of short stories that I have compiled over about ten years. These were written for myself in the process of learning to write and experiment with different ideas that I felt matter to myself.

I don’t want to set your expectations too high. I would rather tell you this book is junk and have you get more than you would believe than tell you this book is great.

This book was written while I was learning to write. I’m still learning. It’s a process that won’t really ever end. I believe the creation process will end, and everyone will have a final product that is worth having. It just takes a very long time, hence The Long Road.

The Long Road is a collection of short stories that are not really connected, yet have some similar themes and ideas that run through them.

READ The Long Road Today!

There are characters that are doing something real, they have deeper thoughts than just what is accepted as the norm. I leave many of the stories unfinished at this time, and leave the endings up to your imagination and own creativity to what happens.

If you can think these stories through and consider what I am saying, GREAT! If you want shallow entertainment that is all fun, please look elsewhere.

Many of you won’t like this book. Okay. Great. I’m willing to bet at some point you will change your mind.

Not every book written should be read. Maybe there is a select few that will understand my mind, until then keep dreaming and thinking free. See you somewhere down the long road.

Thoughts So Far

Some of My Thoughts

After a few years of working towards some basic goals. I wanted to share some of my basic thoughts so far with others that they might benefit from. It seems there has to be a master plan to build something good. However you will find better success in things that you build with a team of people. If your team has  been dedicated and shared their passion into making something great.

It seems that anything that you do of your own accord will be met with limited success and perhaps none at all. To really get something going, requires buy in from other people in your social circle’s. It helps if you have at least ten people that will not only read your content. It also greatly helps if they will share your content with other people on social media platforms. What are my thoughts so far? Read on my friend.

Thoughts So Far About Drifting In Space

Does it seem every time you figure the game out, they change the rules. It’s no different. As it’s been said many times before, “Of course the game is rigged, but if you don’t play you can’t win.”

I don’t know if I’m tired of playing or just ready to do some other direction that is more nature based.  Some of my thoughts are that I have put my heart, mind, and soul into working these things out.  Still no one cares or could give even the slightest care about what matters to me. I’m starting to wonder how to motivate people into starting to care.

Ask Around

It seems that I have very few friends in this world, and even fewer people that believe in me as a person, or as a being that I’m of value or have something of value to offer to others. Maybe the problem is that I’m so far ahead of my time, that it’s going to be a while before people start to understand my stand and positioning in life. That could be very true, more true than I would care to admit. My thoughts so far, maybe it’s time to stop doing research and do something real.



I just want to share some of my experience that went into building my website. Even though it’s not done yet, and there is still a lot of work to be done. I made this funny little video for people to maybe have a laugh. If you have ever built a website you know that I’m joking about a few things. All in good humor.

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This video isn’t great, But I did do the main music for the video.

Set the marker or fail forward

I had really hoped to have found more success through my efforts than what I have already seen. It’s not too late for more, it’s just getting tough to keep my motivation from going out the window in building something that no one will ever really take a look at. Maybe I’m wasting my life, and maybe my time?

Please take a look, send me a message, and have some fun. Flip a coin, or take the time to read my short stories. You never know what you might learn.


Tell me how to grow what I’m working on into something better. I want to do a lot better and develop something that works for telling my story and sharing my work. It’s all interconnected in some way or another. There has to be a way to share my story with people that will connect with me and understand the unique challenges that I have been through.


Ideas On Art

Ideas On Art

Here are some very basic rudimentary ideas on art and what I feel about making art as a process from 2015. Not that anyone will ever care, or even bother to listen to this video, but it’s worth a try.

You have to understand that when your doing all you can just to stay afloat, then the daily stuff is just fluff. I want to talk about not just the importance of making art, but the importance of feeling content with being alive just to create.

If you don’t have a curious mind, or a curious heart, life is going to get awful dull someday.  Your going to wish that you understood something more than just paying the bills and having oxygen to breath.

Sometimes there are plenty of things to get you through the day.  Other times it’s only by God’s saving grace that we can get through one more. They aren’t all bad days, it is however worth knowing that you are worthy of life.  That you have value, and that you have something that only you can do.

With all of that said, here is an old video of my ideas on art that is for you to look at. I’m in better and worse shape now then when this video was made, but my looks aren’t what is at stake.


Note To Future Self

Be kind, Love With Everything You Got

In a cruel world, where kindness is a forgotten art; it can cure a sick heart. You have to believe the power of your heart and mind is greater than the sick hate roaming the world ‘oer. I have walked upon hill and gully, both from happier times and the depths ‘o hell. It’s better if you can forgive, and your stronger in the long run if you can keep them from hurting you in the first place.

Do no harm, find ways to place hate behind you and love before your eyes. Not the love of lust, or power; but the love of goodness. When there is good in all you plan and do, then you will find your a worthy man.

Give freely, take no more than you need. A tree planted today will be food and shade for your future generations. Respect your universe, it’s creator, and the programmer who can replace you with a very small shell script.

I beg you go into the arts. The revenge business doesn’t pay like love in the future will. Sometimes you just gotta walk away, remember the poem by Kipling, (*if*) . neither woman nor drink, will fix it. You can’t drown pain of debt to god in the ocean. But If you could match his blue shade for shade, you might make an impression. Don’t try to copy an original, it makes for bad business.

Swim like you could fly, and fly like a fish swims.

Photo Post

I’m trying to put some light back in an already dim world. I hope this picture will pick your socks up and do the laundry. Let me know if you find the dish soap, I hid it where no one would look. I’m bored with my life, myself, and the worry about the future. Going to have to leave it in gods hands.


Blue Angle

Trippy View

Watch This, Trip Out!!

I was bored one day and choose to experiment a bit. This tripped me out so bad I had to spend a few days to process what I had made. Please take a look and see if it doesn’t make you feel a bit different afterwords.

From my youtube channel. enjoy! If you think this is any good let me know. In the rare event you don’t like it, please forward my apologies to the view on screen 52. Time does some trippy stuff.


Dogs Welcome

New The Old New

Well it’s not really new, actually it’s old. It would be very difficult to tell you. Because time is relative. So it could have been from billions of years ago and just new now.

I want to share some ideas with you. I have a story to tell about some of the things I have thought. Rather than let you read my journals of four million words, I have a series of short stories that you can read. The Long Road!

If you really want to think about them you will see that the stories do kind of go together in some shape or form if your really creative. I hope you will read them and form some idea of what life for me has been like. Maybe you will understand my problems, my fears, and my hopes and dreams.

In case you just don’t care please flip a coin and see if your going to have a bad cat. Coin Flip.

Short Essay

Something to think about

People are so worried about the state of the world that they have forgotten to take care of others. William Blake said the starving dog at his masters gate predicts the ruin of the state.

When you have something you want to know about life, the earth, you seek truth in general. They say to seek out respect over seeking attention, and that is something that everyone should agree with.

Here is the problem. I want people to start waking up to the truth. To seek the real purpose and meaning in life. Something is wrong with the world, our communities, and our home life. What it is, no one can really understand or communicate.

We have to ask ourselves, “How many like myself in this world that just want a better life?” How many others are there in this world that want peace, that want depth and meaning without having the lies this world wants us to believe?

To know what the truth is, you have to know what some of the lies are. It does help to understand the basics before going into a direction that doesn’t work.

What works?

All too often people believe that they have freedom of choice because they have more than one choice to choose from. What they don’t understand is that both sides are necessary for the others survival and when we understand that we are all either going to the same place or that there will be a total end to everything.

No one can be left behind, forgotten, or go through life to have to endure the problems that have come upon all of us. The truth is that these pains have made us stronger, and that life requires that we pay the price of some hardship to gain the true understanding.

Really we have to think about what kind of life we want, what kind or earth we want to live on. What we want for the future? The possibilities that are present would make so much more possible. However there is really only a small fraction of people that would truly be ready for such knowledge.

We want to make the earth better for everyone to live. We don’t need the lies they want us to accept without thinking about any of them to give them control they don’t deserve.

I’m pretty sure most people don’t know reality from what they want us to believe is true. Most people don’t know how to distinguish fact from fiction. In a world of lies that keep everyone so confused that they can not make a choice for the best of everyones own good.

What is the real problem?

Everyone thinks that everyone else is someone else’s problem, and that someone else will take care of it, why don’t we start putting in the effort to find out if we are all the same then why are we ignoring the problem like it doesn’t exist?

If hate speech is wrong, but freedom of speech is right. Then they should be able to communicate the problem in such a way as to use free speech without resorting to being uncivilized.

What we are seeing is not the mark of intelligent people. What we are seeing is the results of people that have been done wrong to, lied to, and left for dead.

You want change in the world, change yourself first. Everyone demands that we change the problems, however each of us are the problem. Stop hating and change ourselves. When people have reached awareness that is required the problems will take care of themselves.

Create, Dream, in-vision Better For Progress and Change

Life through the wrong eyes

If you see with the wrong eyes then you don’t see the truth for what it is. If you see life through the right eyes, then you know truth and understand more is possible. I look at this shallow superficial world and the people that care neither for me or my work. I find that I start getting a little too hard inside. We want progress that changes for the better not just change.

Sometimes you need a story to remind you of better times or to have a soft heart. When times are tough. Sometimes we get so darn hard that we forget to be soft in kindness, love, and understanding.

I find that communicating with others about their life, their sorrows and their real story that I find not only my troubles are shared. Their is a common goal for my fellows. Nothing unites a people like a shared common goal. What we need is leaders that will inspire us to each live despite the odds.

Change or Progress?

What we need is people that see past this culture and want to grow a tree in the hole in our culture for something to truly eat that nourishes our hearts, minds, and souls. I want to encourage people that rather than resorting to hurting people to be creative in doing things that are positive and promote growth and freedom for all.

When someone hurts you, instead of hurting them back, it’s better to just walk away and leave them to their own selfish hurtful ways. They may not ever change or maybe they will see their ways are insufficient and change. Which is worse a lack of money or a lack of character? A lack of money might bring out some new things in your character. Not that it’s good to be without character that is worthy of being helped.  Personally I would rather have my character worthy of the right things.

After having been hurt pretty badly the last few months, having broken teeth and a dwindling bank account and a close brush with death there have been some days my temper has had to be closely watched for true feelings of hate. Sure some money might fix the outside like a coat of paint on a cheep car, but if you want to fix the problem; fix the engine. You know?